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These Weights

Released September 17, 2015

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These Weights

Released September 17, 2015

You gotta get on your own
You gotta get away from home
Cause they drag you down
Cause they drag you down

You gotta get on your path
Look forward and don’t look back
Cause they drag you down
They drag you down

Chorus
Sometimes you got to run
Sometimes you got to run
Run run, run run

You’re trapped in a dead end job
An 8 ft prison left to rot
Don’t let it drag you down
Don’t let it drag you down

Had ambition but you threw it aside
For the foundation of a 9-5
Don’t let it drag you down
Don’t let it drag you down

Chorus
Sometimes you got to run
Sometimes you got to run
Run run, run run

Bridge
You’re a river but you lay stagnant
You need to flow to the horizon

Break the dam like a tidal wave
You gotta drown negativity and wash it away

Set out baby
And get out baby
Think about number one
You gotta shout out baby
Like a shotgun baby
Shoot off and run
Run run, run run
I’ll sell you something in the morning
I’ll sell you something late at night
I’ll sell you something in the evening baby
I promise that I’ll make you feel alright

I’ll sell you something that’s good
I’ll sell you something that’s sweet
I’ll sell you something and I’ll guarantee honey it’s exactly what you need

Chorus
If you got the money I’m good
I’ll sell you something no one else could

I’ll sell you something on a weekday
I’ll sell you something at weeks end
I’ll sell you something on a holiday
Oh you and me are gonna be best friends

I’ll sell you something that’s smooth
I’ll sell you something that’s clean
I’ll sell you something and I’ll guarantee it’s exactly what you need

Chorus
If you got the money I’m good
I’ll sell you something no one else could

I’ll sell you something better than whiskey
I’ll sell you something finer than wine
I’ll sell you something you that you can’t get anywhere else cause it’s only mine, mine, mine!

I’ll sell you something that’s pure
I’ll sell you something that’s discrete
I’ll sell you something and I’ll guarantee it’s exactly what you need

Chorus
If you got the money I’m good
I’ll sell you something no one else could
I got woken up in the middle of the night
By a jet flying over for doing’ another airstrike
Three more weeks and then I’m through
And then it’s “Honey, I’m coming home to you.”

I got sand in my teeth and blood in my eye
I got sores on my feet and shrapnel in my thigh
Your picture on my helmet what’s got me through
Oh Honey I’m coming home to you

Chorus
I’m coming home to you
We’ll lay together under a full moon
A glass of wine and some Dylan tunes
Oh Honey I’m coming home to you

Well just last Monday we lost Slo’Tom
When his HUM-V got nailed  by a roadside bomb
I watched them carry his body through
Don’t worry Honey, I’m coming home to you

Well I’ve seen somethings  that I’ll never understand
I watched the blood of the innocent soak into the sand
Kids so young with guns in their hands
Oh it’s true, I’m coming home to you

Chorus
I’m coming home to you
We’ll lay together under a full moon
A glass of wine and some Dylan tunes
Oh Honey I’m coming home to you
Bridge
I was trained to kill the threat
But sometimes I wonder if I’m it
Shoot to kill or is it kill to shoot?
The hot sun can blind the truth
But what exactly are we fighting for?
Bringing peace or taking foreign oil?
There’s one thing I know is true
And that’s Honey I’m coming home to you

Chorus
I’m coming home to you
We’ll lay together under a full moon
A glass of wine and some Dylan tunes
Oh Honey I’m coming home to you
I watch the fire burn out in the stove
Golden flames once danced now rest only coals
Such a heat grew from a tiny spark
Now it’s smothered by the coldness of the dark
And like the strong sturdy oak
Our love eventually went up in smoke

Chorus
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, oooh goodbye
We can no longer ignore the signs

We used to walk at night in the park
Our bodies, some wine and the dark
Now we lie here in this cold bed
Back to back, far apart, not a word is said
The moonlight used to shine off your breast
Now it highlights our distance instead

Chorus
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, oooh goodbye
We can no longer ignore the signs
The Brass handle did shine
And the knocker rang with such a clang
And the hinge would swing without a sound
As I picked you up in your beautiful wedding gown
And carried you through that door

We were young having fun
That door was open to everyone
And friends would come and go as they pleased
We’d sit holding hands as that cool summers breeze
Would gently blow through that door

Chorus
That door with all its scratches
Chipped wood and rusty latches
Nail holes and painted patches
It stood strong as long as our love lasted

As our family grew
That door welcomed us through
And protected us from the cold nights lonely winds
I remember when the kids would stand in it’s strong sturdy frame
Waiting for me to come home

Over time it witnessed the pain
As our love got tested and strained
It echoed our yells and trembled as it slammed
But it stopped you as you tried to leave and reminded you of all it’s seen
As you turned and we kissed at that door

Chorus
That door with all its scratches
Chipped wood and rusty latches
Nail holes and painted patches
It stood strong as long as our love lasted
Oh Riley why did you run?
Oh Riley why did you run?
Your daddy’s out searching the roads
Your mama waits by the phone
Your sisters they cry and they moan
Oh Riley why did you run?

Oh Riley where did you go?
Oh Riley where did you go?
The leaves will soon be covered with snow
And the wind will follow you where everywhere you go
The air will bite with the cold
Oh Riley where did you go?

Oh Riley please come home
Oh Riley please come home
It’s years you’ve been away
We think about you everyday
Our hope still remains
Oh Riley please come home
Well I’m makin’ good time on this road
I’m makin’ good time on this road
Well I’ve taken many detours and wrong turns I know
Now I’m makin’ good time on this road

Well I’ve done some things that I can’t undo
I’ve done some things that I can’t undo
But I can’t go in reverse only straight forward to you
I’ve done some things that I can’t undo

Well I’ve been lost and broken down
Yes I’ve been lost and broken down
But people who knew you picked me up and turned me around
When I’ve been lost and broken down

Chorus
This old road just keeps on rolling
Over the horizon it just keeps on going
Sometimes it’s smooth, sometimes it’s broken
Sometimes it’s clear sometimes it hidden

Well I’ve slowed down and been low on fuel
Yes I’ve slowed down and been low on fuel
Well I’ve come to a complete stop and lost total sight of you
When I’ve slowed down and been low on fuel

Now I’m rolling fast and this road is straight
Yes I’m rolling fast and this road is straight
And I’ll pick up anyone who needs a ride along the way
Now that I’m rolling fast and the road is straight

Chorus
This old road just keeps on rolling
Over the horizon it just keeps on going
Sometimes it’s smooth, sometimes it’s broken
Sometimes it’s clear sometimes it hidden
When you’re feeling down, you’re up against the wall
Your legs are weak and you’re about to fall
When the sun goes down and you’re alone in the black
Don’t feel scared, I’ve got your back

When life gets hard, and times are tough
If you get lost and the road gets rough
If you’re singled out or feel peer pressures lash
Just stay strong, I’ve got your back

Chorus
I’ve got your back wherever you go
From the highest mountains to the lowest lows
From morning’s light to the last second of dark
If you need a fire I’ll be the spark
As step out into the unknown
And you stand at the crossroads wondering where to go
Don’t be afraid to beat your own path
For with each step forward I’ve got your back

If your heart gets broken or your eyes blur with tears
Friends turn away, insults sting your ears
If you’ve made some mistakes, ashamed of your past
I’m not here to judge; I’ve got your back

There’ll come a time when you have to stand up for what you believe
Remember no one can follow unless there’s someone to lead
And while you’re on that path, stand strong and outlast
I’ll be right behind, I’ve got your back.

Chorus
I’ve got your back wherever you go
From the highest mountains to the lowest lows
From morning’s light to the last second of dark
If you need a fire I’ll be the spark
As step out into the unknown
And you stand at the crossroads wondering where to go
Don’t be afraid to beat your own path
For with each step forward I’ve got your back
When 5 o’clock hits I’ll be the first one to punch out
I’ll walk away quiet but inside I’ll  screaming loud
It’s Friday night, I got paid and I’m gonna blow it all
On cigarettes, fast food, fast ladies, cheap alcohol

Chorus
Tonight I’m gonna let it all out
When 5 o’clock hits I’m going wild

I’m carrying a 60hr workweek heavy on my back
I work my fingers to the bone they never cut me any slack
I ain’t got no wife, no kids, no mortgage, no nothing like that
My wallets a switchblade and it’s ready to attack

Chorus
Tonight I’m gonna let it all out
When 5 o’clock hits I’m going wild

Bridge
I’m gonna hit the bar like a wrecking ball
I’m gonna dance with the women until they fall
I’m gonna raise a glass until last call
I’m gonna make it home happy; walk or crawl

Chorus
Tonight I’m gonna let it all out
When 5 o’clock hits I’m going wild
Her hair was as black as the night And eyes as bright as the day But when I let her go she blew away I could feel the pull of the wind But I wouldn’t release my grip Her sails were always set like a sailing ship Whoa, whoa, whoa, she blew away Mama said, “Son if you love something set it free. If it returns or not there’s no guarantee.” The wind carried her up Over mountains, fields and streams Now the only place I see her in in my dreams Whoa, whoa, whoa, she blew away Chorus Well sometimes when you hold onto things you love so tight You seldom open your eyes But when you finally see the light Love has blown away and left you blind Bridge Hey pretty baby I shoulda held you tight And never let you go that night I got a pain in my chest I can hardly breath Well I should’ve known if I let you go That I’d be left here all alone Waiting for you to come home When I’m alone and I hear That wind outside I close my eyes and dream she’s by my side Well I know that she’s floating somewhere Out on a breeze I hope someday she blows right back to me Never did I think that day That if I let her go she’d stray She blew away
Come sit with me for a moment son
Before you get up and go, Ohhh I know
I was once young like you once son
And I wish someone took the time to let know

The world can be filled with warm sun
Or emptiness of a midnights snow
The softness of a woman’s touch
Or the pierce of the arrow and the bow

The devil can hide in a bottle
Or on the breathe of a gentle kiss
There’s a little evil in everyone
So keep your eyes open so nothing gets missed

Chorus
Do as I say not as I’ve done
On lifes slimey roads my wheels have spun
So listen to my words and take with it what you will my dear son
Do as I say not as I’ve done

Learn to trust others
But first learn to trust yourself
Always finish what you started
And never be afraid to ask for help

To cheat in life is easy
But there’s no pride in what you’ve done
Through sacrifice and hard work
Is the only way pride can be won
Know when to step back
Know when to step forth and be strong
Always root for the underdog
Never be afraid to right a wrong

Chorus
Do as I say not as I’ve done
On lifes slimey roads my wheels have spun
So listen to my words and take with it what you will my dear son
Do as I say not as I’ve done

Make sure you time for your family
Cause I guarantee there’ll come a day
That they’ll get up to leave you
And you’ll pray you showed them the way.

As look back on your own life
And the man you’ve become
You’ll understand when I said

Do as I say not as I’ve done
On lifes slimey roads my wheels have spun
So listen to my words and take with it what you will my dear son
Do as I say not as I’ve done
Tom was born in St. Petersburg
In the winter of 78
Son if a heroin mom
And a dad who only knew how to hate

His daddy beat him as his mommy looked away
As she’d stop to put another needle in
They blamed him for all their mistakes
Tommy was only a kid

Tommy dropped out of school
The day he turned 16
He got a job at the paper mill
And was fired in less than a week
He soon came to realize
Things come to you a little easier when you cheat
He started stealing cars and dealing drugs
Tommy was only a kid

Chorus
Innocent born, destructively raised
Now his conscience deteriorates
His constant aggression, fed by his inflictions
Now he carries these weights

He hung out, strung out
With an emptiness he could never fill
He beat his girlfriend within an inch of her life
Then sat down and took a handful of pills

A bad upbringing from the beginning
An ever present weight he just could not bear
He ended his life with a gun in his mouth
Tommy was only a kid

Chorus
Innocent born, destructively raised
Now his conscience deteriorates
His constant aggression, fed by his inflictions
Now he carries these weights

Of What Is Left

Released June 14, 2014

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Of What Is Left

Released June 14, 2014

Time stands still
Here in these hills
Paused like the pines
In the mornings chill

The fogs on the water
And it floats like a ghost
Reminiscent of past souls
That have fished these shores

The echoes of a loon
Plays the softest of tunes
Like Mother Natures lullaby
To wake up too

The grass is soaked
With a heavy dew
Like a field of diamonds
When the sun shines through

Chorus
Well it’s here that time stands still

Clacking of the dock
From the weight of our walk
Sends ripples on the water
As it laps on the rocks

Just sit with an old friend
And cast as we talk
About days long gone
Maybe even catch our lunch

Chorus
Well it’s here that time stands still

Bridge
There’s no fast forward
There’s only slo-mo
No hustle no bustle
We just go with the flow
Like the leaves on the trees
And the cloud in the sky
No reason to stress
We’re gonna live till we die

Chorus
Well it’s here that time stands still
Like a boat that’s lost at sea
Will it ever be led home by the breath of a breeze
Like the clouds around the setting sun
What kind of picture will they paint with their brush

Like the path of a rolling stone
No one knows where it will call its home
Like the rain that falls from the sky
Will it flood or will it reside

Well it’s not set in stone
Well it’s not set in stone

Like a hand that’s been biten by lies
Will it ever reach out to an innocent cry
Like the thread in the needles hole
How many stitches until it pulls

Well it’s not set in stone
Well it’s not set in stone

Chorus
Baby you can count on me
Just like the river that flows to the sea
You’ll never be on your own
Cause honey I’m set in stone

Like the path that’s proven and worn
Will it someday be abandoned and overgrown
Like the sinner who walks through hell
Will he ever hear the ring of heavens bells

Like the rhythm of a beating drum
Will people stand up to the opposition
Like the message in the singers song
Will fall on deaf ears or make a weak soul strong

Well it’s not set in stone
Well it’s not set in stone

Chorus
Baby you can count on me
Just like the river that flows to the sea
You’ll never be on your own
Cause honey I’m set in stone
You sit in your favorite chair
In a silence with a blank stare
And I can tell you’ve got something on your mind

There’s lack of conversation
Every night at the dinner table
And I can tell you’ve got something on your mind

Chorus
On your mind, on your mind
Well I can tell you’ve got something on your mind
On your mind, on your mind
I can only hope and pray it ain’t thoughts of the leavin’ kind

When we’re out with friends
You act like your old self again
And it seems like you’ve got nothing on your mind

But when we get in the car
Your glow gets dim and dark
And I can tell you still got something on your mind

Chorus
On your mind, on your mind
Well I can tell you’ve got something on your mind
On your mind, on your mind
I can only hope and pray it ain’t thoughts of the leavin’ kind

In bed you pretend to sleep
But I can tell by the way you breathe
That you’ve got something on your mind

But when I try to ask
You tell me to just relax
Saying you’ve got nothing on your mind

Chorus
On your mind, on your mind
Well I can tell you’ve got something on your mind
On your mind, on your mind
I can only hope and pray it ain’t thoughts of the leavin’ kind
I can feel the loose gravel under my soles
Clouds tease me with shade as they roll
That unforgiving sun steals my soul from my blood
My teeth grind up that wind blown dust

For years I’ve walked this asphalt
Trying to escape all my thoughts
My heels drag with every step
As my ideals become regrets

Chorus
I’ve been gone, gone, gone
For so long, long, long
I don’t even know the way back home
Well I’ve been gone, gone, gone
For so long, long, long
Oh I walk this world alone

Well I was young when I left home
Confident and cocky I could take this world on my own
But the road was seldom straight
And I didn’t learn from my mistakes

Like the dirt that’s worn into my boots
I carry guilt I cannot lose
Deaf to the voices in my head
And blind to the path that lay ahead

Chorus
I’ve been gone, gone, gone
For so long, long, long
I don’t even know the way back home
Well I’ve been gone, gone, gone
For so long, long, long
Oh I walk this world alone

Bridge
Well I’ve followed that never-ending white line
And endulged myself in women and wine
No matter where I lay my head
I wake up wishing that I was home instead

Chorus
I’ve been gone, gone, gone
For so long, long, long
I don’t even know the way back home
Well I’ve been gone, gone, gone
For so long, long, long
Oh I walk this world alone
This old body has seen better days
Years of living have left it grey
There was a time that it stand so strong and straight
This old body has seen better days

These old hands are cracked and dried
From working hard their whole life
For my family they did provide
These old hands are cracked and dried

These old knees they throb and ache
From nights of dancing and Sundays praise
There was a time that they  could easily bear the weight
These old knees throb and they ache

Chorus
This old body has served me well
Like the chapters in a book it’s got a story to tell
But the pages are torn and lord that covers frayed
This old body has seen better days

These old eyes o’ the sights that they’ve seen
Mountains tall and valleys deep
Prairies wide and the coastal seas
These old eyes and the sights that they’ve seen

This old heart only had one love
But she’s left for the heavens above
She said she’d wait on glory shores until my come
This old heart only had one love

Chorus
This old body has served me well
Like the chapters in a book it’s got a story to tell
But the pages are torn and lord that covers frayed
This old body has seen better days

I woke up this morning with a crick in my neck
Realizing my life wasn’t worth a shit
Well I went to the kitchen to heat up some brew
And through the old screen door the fresh air blew

Like a hurricane it hit me what am I doing here
Surrounded by pain, frustration and fears
Well I grabbed my guitar and packed it all in
And I headed outside with my back to the wind

Well I started out walking down dusty gravel roads
Across open fields on rivers of asphalt I roamed
Through cities, across country my feet carried me
For once in my life I finally felt free

With no one to answer and no place to be
Traveling like a cloud just led by the breeze
With my lungs filled with air, warm sun on my face
My eyes on the horizon and my back to the wind

Chorus
It pushes me wherever I go
It moves me but sometimes it slows
And I stay until it blows
Then I’m off again with my back to the wind

I worked my whole life trying to earn the mighty dollar
And I never once heard that free wind a holler
It was calling for me but I was blind, deaf and dumb
It wanted me out it begged me to come

Well, I finally accepted with its gentle ease
An invite of freedom on the tail of breeze
It opened my eyes shattered my chains
Now I’m living the good life with my back to the wind

Chorus
It pushes me wherever I go
It moves me but sometimes it slows
And I stay until it blows
Then I’m off again with my back to the wind
I’ve walked a thousand miles
And I’ve talked in a thousand tongues
I’ve climbed a thousand hills
And I’ve banged on a thousand drums

I’ve sung a thousand songs
And I’ve hummed a thousand hymns
I’ve stood against a thousand strong
For the good of a single kid

But I’ve only found one of you (x2)

I’ve strung a thousand strings
I’ve lived among a thousand thieves
I’ve received a thousand stings
For believing in a single belief

I’ve held a thousand hands
And I’ve been dealt a thousand cards
I’ve rambled across a thousand lands
And I’ve gambled in a thousand bars

But I’ve only found one of you (x2)

No matter how far I go
Across mountain tops and sandy shores
Through fields of green across the ocean blue
I’ve only found one of you (x3)
As the sun sets in the west
And the dust sticks to my neck
I watch the city lights fade in my mirror

My foot is heavy doing a buck twenty
On a lost highway in a stolen chevy
That V6 is screaming in high gear
And I can’t stop that ringing in my ears

My heart’s pounding in my chest
No time to stop no time to rest
I gotta get far away from here

I know I can never go back
To what I had and what I left
I only hope that I can persevere
But I can’t stop that ringing in my ears

Chorus
In my ears I’ll carry the pain
Echoing through my skull into my brain
That one shot will resonate
In my soul all the way to my grave
That ringing in my ears

Time were tough and I needed cash
So I went to the corner where they pump gas
And I made way up to the cashier

Well, I never meant to hurt no one
But the kid got tough and pulled out a gun
I only had one choice and it was clear
I still hear that ringing in my ear

As he lay on the floor slowly bleeding
I tried to help but his heart stopped beating
Grabbed the keys, ran out the door and disappeared

Like the hands of the clock on the face of time
The days will pass and the years will fly by
Every second that ticks away I fear
I can’t stop that ringing in my ears

Chorus
In my ears I’ll carry the pain
Echoing through my skull into my brain
That one shot will resonate
In my soul all the way to my grave
That ringing in my ears
I’ll be awake until dawn
Sitting out there on the lawn
Every hour it just drags on
Oh the days feel so long

Time’s a bitch when you’re gone
But times all I got so I hold on

Oh I howl at the moon
Hoping you’ll be home soon
I know you need me by your side
Comforting you after a long day’s stride

Time’s a bitch when you’re gone
But times all I got so I hold on

Chorus
Waiting all night
Hoping that you’re alright
Staring at the stars
Waiting for the sound of your car
Waiting for the sound of your car

Well I can feel the cold wind blow
But I’m tied down with nowhere to go
And I whine as if in pain
But you’re the only one that can undo these chains

Time’s a bitch when you’re gone
But times all I got so I hold on

Chorus
Waiting all night
Hoping you’re alright
Staring at the stars
Waiting for the sound of your car

Baby I came to tell you
That it’s time to go
We had some good fun hun
But it’s time to go home

So finish your last drink
And butt out your cigarette
I’ll tip the bartender
And let’s have one last dance

Chorus
Cause it’s time to go
Baby it’s time to go
But I promise we’ll be back for more

Wipe off that sweat
Between those sweet breasts
The winds blowing outside
And a chill you may get

So put on your scarf
And button up your coat
I’ll grab the car
And pull up to the door

Chorus
As you walk out
There’s a wiggle in your hips
A smile on your pretty face
And a goodnight kiss on your lips

You rest you’re tired head
Up against my arm
While the radio plays
Our favourite song

Chorus
My eyes awake
My muscles ache
I get up to leave
As I hear you breathe
I grab my gloves
And I kiss your brow
I wish I could stay
But I’ve got fields to plow

The floorboards creak
As I walk down the hall
The moonlight shines
On our girls so small
As I step out
That old barn cat meows
They day is young
And I’ve got fields to plow

As I make my way
Past the bails of hay
I watch the sheep graze
In the morning haze
And the sparrows sing
Like angels in the clouds
Watching over me
As these fields to plow

I till this earth
It’s my life’s work
To provide
For those loved ones inside
The kitchen light’s on
Breakfast I can smell
It’s time to break
From these fields I plow
The leaves have fallen upon the ground
The lush green grass has faded to brown
By the cold mountain river

Water rushes through the hills
To the lakes in the valley where it lies still
Where it waits for the lonely ice of winter

Joanna would come every afternoon
To sit at its shore and listen to its tune
As the current would gently sing to her

Chorus
That cold mountain river
Such beauty and power
It runs from the heavens to the earth
And washes away all the dirt

Little did she know that she wasn’t alone
A man hid in the bushes hungry for control
By the cold mountain river

As Joanna watched the water flow by
She caught the bushes move in the corner of her eye
As she felt her skin suddenly quiver

The man ran out and threw her to the ground
Covered her mouth so she couldn’t make a sound
As she looked into the eyes of a killer

Chorus
As he tore at her clothes
She stared in his eyes and reached real slow
For the knife at her side that her daddy gave her

And as he bared an evil grin
She thrust that knife deep within
Through his gut, straight into his liver

The man jumped up clenching at his side
Gushing blood and wide eyed
As fell into that cold mountain river

Chorus
I drag myself through these dirty damp streets
As I try to remember the way
But the howling of horns and the screaming of brakes
Cause my mind to stray away

Air conditioners drips fall like cold rain
And roll off my unshaven face
I got a 50 dollar bill rolled up in my hand
And I’m off to put the devil in my veins

Chorus
Well I walk these streets
As I try to escape whats left of me
As my eyes roll back
I lose a piece of what is left
Of what is left

I stumble through the shadows of overcast signs
Into cave like alley ways
Where I fight for the pleasure of WallStreet junkies
Who pay to see me bring pain

My knuckles adorn crowns made from scars
I’ve got dried blood caked under my nails
My clothes bare the wear of many hard nights
My eyes strain as daylight sets sail

Chorus

Until It Passes By

Released September 5, 2012

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Until It Passes By

Released September 5, 2012

I don’t need no expensive house
I don’t need no big bank accounts
I don’t need no fancy yachts
But baby, I need what you got

I don’t need no silver and gold
I don’t need my life story told
I don’t need to be the big shot
But baby, I need what you got

Chorus
Time and time
Again and again
I prove to myself
That I can live with out most anything
But when asked the one thing I can not
I say baby, I need what you got

I don’t need not fast cars
I don’t need to travel a far
I don’t need to be in the spotlight
But baby, I need what you got

I don’t need no fortune and fame
I don’t need people chanting my name
I don’t need a million bucks
But baby, I need what you got

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Time and time
Again and again
I prove to myself
That I can live with out most anything
But when asked the one thing I can not
I say baby, I need what you got
The sun is slowly setting
And the pain is settling in
So begins another endless night
Of coping with my sins

Well I lived a life of recklessness
Filled with whiskey, lies and hurt
I only cared about myself
I treated everyone like dirt

Well it seems I’ve always been running
From what I’ll never know
But it looks like it has a hold of me now
And it will never let go

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Well I had many a chance
But I threw them all away
Now I sit here just wasting away
I had friends and I had loved ones
But I turned them all away
Now I sit here just wasting away

I had a good women once
And she offered me her heart
But like a fool I took it for granted
And tore that heart apart

Together we had a daughter
And at the tender age of three
I left that child and shot out west
And she never again heard from me

Well it seems I’ve always been running
From what I’ll never know
And it looks like it has a hold of me now
And it will never let go

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Well I had many a chance
But I threw them all away
Now I sit here just wasting away
I had friends and I had loved ones
But I turned them all away
Now I sit here just wasting away
Dear Momma, dear Momma
Can you ever forgive
The evil I shown
And the things that I did

Dear Momma, dear Momma
My soul is filled with shame
There was a demon inside me
And it finally broke its cage

Dear Momma, dear Momma
There’s nothing you could have changed
Please don’t carry my burden
You’re no the one to blame

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I can’t undo what I’ve done
I’ve got nowhere else to run
I pray dear Momma
Forgive your son

Dear Momma, dear Momma
I wish I could turn back time
They say you dig your own grave
Well I’ve surely dug mine

Dear Momma, dear Momma
Like the warm summer’s breeze
I’ll miss your soft kiss
That you’d lay upon my cheek

Dear Momma, dear Momma
Until we meet again
Promise my with all your heart
You won’t live a life of pain

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Well, I can’t undo what I’ve done
I’ve got nowhere else to run
I pray dear Momma
Forgive your son

The worst thing I could do
Was to ever have hurt you
I pray dear Momma
Forgive your son
Winter wind, winter wind
Oh how you blow, oh how you blow
I can feel the bite of your cold
In my bones, in my bones

Winter wind, winter wind
Oh how you blow, oh how you blow
You disguise yourself with the beauty of the snow
But your heart is as black as the coal

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You only speak of death
I can smell it on your breath
Burning my skin, winter wind
You tear at my clothes
Throwing sleet and blowing snow
With an icicle grin winter wind

I try to sleep at night but I hear you outside
Over those hills, bringing your chill
You bark and you howl, you cry and you moan
Wrapping on my window, pounding on my door

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You only speak of death
I can smell it on your breath
Burning my skin, winter wind
You tear at my clothes
Throwing sleet and blowing snow
With an icicle grin winter wind

Winter wind, winter wind
Oh how you blow, oh how you blow
It was the 13th of November 1999
I was hauling petroleum on Highway #9
It was a raining and a blowing and I could hardly see outside
When I saw a man with his thumb in the air
and I offered him a ride

As I pulled over he waved a hand of thanks
I leaned over to open the door and move my things aside
Well he got in and shook the rain from his spine
I asked what he was doing hitching’ down Highway #9

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He said, “I’m out searching for the father of mine.
All the memories of him have been erased from my mind.
But as a child my mother told me, he and I would ride
In his big rig on Highway #9.”
Like a bullet to the back it took me by surprise
With another look at him I could see his mother’s eyes
And they pierced right through me straight into my soul
My throat tightened up and my blood ran cold

Well we drove through the darkness and on through the night
He told me stories and showed me a picture of his wife
But he told me his mission was to one day find
His daddy out hauling on Highway #9

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Eventually we pulled over and he thanked me for the ride
I couldn’t dare tell him that his dad was right at his side
For a man who ran and left his whole family behind
Deserves to ride alone down Highway #9
Can you feel that cold wind blowing
Can you see the rustling of the trees
Can you hear that thunder rolling
Well a storm is coming so you better not leave

I can hear the rain dancing on the ol’ tin roof
Black clouds cover the sky with grief
Away all the birds have flew
Well a storm is coming so you better not leave

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Well a storm is coming
So stay here right by my side
Until it passes by

Over the hills the sky flashes its rage
Through the fields the hateful storm heaves
Like a propeller it spins the wind gauge
Well a storm is coming so you better not leave

Well the powers long gone and the candles are flickering
As the branches snap from the trees
The room lights up from the lightening
Well a storm is coming so you better not leave

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Well a storm is coming
So stay here right by my side
Until it passes by
Sitting alone in a hotel room
Shadows cast from a sombre moon
And I’m thinking of you

Cigarettes and bottles of booze
An empty wallet from my gambling blues
And I’m still thinking of you

The radio plays a heartbreak song
About a man who loved a women but now she’s gone
And I’m thinking of you
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Still thinking of you
I’m thinking of you
You’re the last good thing
I held onto
Well I’m thinking of you
I’m thinking of you
As time slips away
I’m still thinking of you

A picture of you beside me on the bed
A box of shells and a pistol in my hand
And I’m thinking of you

Well I walked a rough road since you left
People are coming to collect their debts
And I’m thinking of you

The door bust down and they burst in the room
Shots fire out and bullets rip through
And I’m thinking of you

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Thinking of you
I’m still thinking of you
You’re the last good thing
I held onto
Still thinking of you
I’m still thinking of you
As time slips away
I’m still thinking of you
With my last breathe
I’m still thinking of you
Baby, well I know it’s hard
When I have to leave for so long
But the highway is calling my name
And that long lonesome road that I have take.

I keep a picture of you on the dash
And I look at it at every exit I pass
Well I’m sorry that I make you live this way
But I was born with a guitar and I just have to play

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Sweet Darlin’
Don’t cry for me those sweet eyes
For I’m riding these highways
Thinking of you tonight

Oh Sweet Darlin’
It’ll be months that I’ll be gone
But soon enough
I’ll hold you again in these arms

Well I hate to think of how you must feel
As I watch your image shrink in the mirror
As I ride through the darkness, the rain and the wind
My mind keeps drifting back to you again

The blur of headlights burn in my brain
The grinding gears remind me of your pain
Under my wheels that cold asphalt moans
But I know that this white line eventually leads home

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Sweet Darlin’
Don’t cry for me those sweet eyes
For I’m riding these highways
Thinking of you tonight

Oh Sweet Darlin’
It’ll be months that I’ll be gone
But soon enough
I’ll hold you again in these arms
Sweet Darlin’
The bells are ringing and the angels are singing
The leaves sway with sorrow as a gentle wind blows
The sun is shining and people are crying
And I’m dressed up in my best clothes

My friends and family they’ve all come to see me
My daughters each carry a white rose
Some came a long way they drove all night and day
To see me dressed in my best clothes

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My brother in the back
All dressed up in black
Regretting things he did say
My mother and father
Each hold one another
Never expecting this day
For my girls my wife struggles to be strong
Through a song a friend did compose
And I look my best as I rest
All dressed up in my best clothes

The preacher stops preaching and the pews are creaking
All my stories have now been told
Six of my friends offer their hands
And carry me out in my best clothes

As I pass over the fresh cut grass
The river beside sparkles and flows
I reach my grave under an oak tree’s shade
I’m lowered down in my best clothes

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With the sun beating down
On the upturned ground
As friends say their final goodbyes
Hymns are sung from heads that are hung
In chorus of cries
Please don’t worry and don’t be in a hurry
To meet me before your time comes
For I’ll await at those golden gates
To greet you when you arrive in your best clothes
Sara was rough girl
With dark hair and a light curl
And a streak of bad in her blood
Simon was a fighter
It was woven in his fibre
A bomb just waiting to blow

Well Sara and Simon
Last night were out driving
When they came across a car in the ditch
The driver was a bleeding
Broken legs and he was pleading
For Sara and Simon to help him

Well beside him in the crash
Sara noticed a bag of cash
Simon saw a pistol at his feet
In the distance sirens were screaming
So Simon let out a demon
And unloaded the gun in the man’s head

The last days of Sara and Simon

They shot out on the road
With that bag full of dough
Thinking they were home free

They got a hotel room
And some booze to consume
And they made love until the break of day

When Simon woke up
He looked outside and saw the cops
Talking to the manager

To his dismay
The manager pointed their way
Simon turned to Sara and said, “It’s time to run!”

The last days of Sara and Simon

They shot out to the car
But they didn’t get far
When a cop yelled out for them to stop

But instead of refuting
Oh Simon started shooting
Oh the bullets began to fly

Sara took one in shoulder
Simon tried to hold her
One pierced through his chest
They fell together
Their blood flew like a river
as Sara and Simon breathed their last breath
The last days of Sara and Simon
I’ve been beat up and pushed down
Face held to the ground
Stomped on and thrown aside
Knocked down and left behind

I’ve been down for the count
Banned and thrown out
Used and abused
And set up to lose
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But I stood up, didn’t use a crutch
Clenched my teeth and licked my cuts
I raised my fists and stepped back in
Barefoot on broken glass
Ready to go again

I’ve been here before
Been shown to the door
Slapped in the face
And thrown to the floor
I’ve been spit on and told off
Lied to and ripped off
Black eyed and broken bones
Bruised pride and bloody nosed
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But I stood up, didn’t use a crutch
Clenched my teeth and licked my cuts
I raised my fists and stepped back in
Barefoot on broken glass
Ready to go again
I’d like to take chance
To raise a drink and thank you friends
For all those who show up
And stay to the end
But for all those lost shows
The times I was told no
For those who have passed
You can shove it up your ass!
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But I stood up, didn’t use a crutch
Clenched my teeth and licked my cuts
I raised my fists and stepped back in
Barefoot on broken glass
Ready to go again
It kills me to see the setting of the sun
Cause I know come the dawn you’ll be gone
It’s clear to see the writing’s on the wall
With every rise comes a fall
Even though you lay at my side
No longer can I see the love in your eyes

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I hear it in your voice
When you say “I love you”
Baby don’t take me as a fool
You tell me what I want to hear
But I know it’s all untrue
Baby don’t take me as a fool

The last few months I felt you drifting away
But you’d continue to tell me that you’d stay
There was a time you craved for my touch
Now you pull away more often than not
I heard you whispering on the phone
Come tomorrow you’ll be out on your own

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I’ve wanted to believe your lies
And hope we’d pull through
Baby don’t take me as a fool
I know your mind’s made up
Tonights the last night with you
Baby don’t take me as a fool

As hard as it might be
I’m better without you
Baby it’s you whose a fool
How slowly the time goes
How coldly the wind blows
My hand trembles on this bottle of wine
The empty case at the door tries to tell me I’m fine

But this aching inside
Tells me no lies
There’s no more happy times
Now that you’re gone

I sit in the chair where you used to sit
I close my eyes and dream of when we were kids
I stare at the ceiling, I punch at the walls
You were my kid brother and we’d been through it all

Life has no flare
Without you here
The birds only sing sad songs
Now that you’re gone

The flowers we planted for you planted, today they bloomed
Yellows, purples and blues
I keep a picture of you close to my heart
One day I thought I lost it and I fell apart

I can’t take the pain
Oh when it rains
How will I go on
Now that you’re gone

I know you wouldn’t want me to live this way
But I can’t turn off all the memories
Maybe in time I’ll regain
But until then I’ll sit here in my pain

All alone…Now that you’re gone
I can finally say that I’m going home
For so long I’ve been on my own
My trip was long and I had some fun
But it’s my time to get going home

These last few miles were tough to walk
And I was alone and in the dark
But I could hear the cheers from everyone
As I reached that gate to my home

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Heavens breeze blows through my young dark hair
I can hear Leonard shouting, “Ma, you’re finally here.”
My friends clap and my siblings sing
As I walk up that path to my home

Well I’ve waited so long and I prayed
For my time, for this day
The loved ones I leave please be strong
Be happy for me cause I’m going home

Chorus
The sun shines and the air is warm
My daughter and son greet me at the door
Mother and Father take me in their arms
As I enter into my home